IM SO FUCKING PISSED AT MYSELF. Im not sure what for, but I so am.

How many times do I have to prove to myself that I’m stupid for ever believing that you’d finally learn to …. Be extra for someone until I JUST. STOP. ALL TOGETHER.

And You’ll learn, maybe a little too late, that fitting in, was never in the stars for you, baby. 

Because You were meant to be ridiculed, laughed at and judged by many people. 

You were meant to fall hard for that jock who paid attention to you back in 6th grade, only to realize that he used you to get much more than what you were willing to give. 

All of this was meant to happen to make You realize that life, is nothing more than a series of tests; to make You ready for even heavier challenges than getting your heart broken; to make You realize that finding your passion, was nothing less than walking in scorching hot coals.